2012/02/09

9 Feb 12

In the last year,I've homework which will never finish on time.
I felt the stress and it's very desperate.
I know the feeling of reaching success is great but before that might be a little bit suffer.
Just to try my best and it's for fun,don't ever take it too serious. As long as I know what should I do.
Still I love movies but I don't think I can spend my time to enjoy that anymore.The least is just one month once and what I do every weekends is just sitting in the library and READ!
Sometimes I can't pay attention with somebody around me so I've to stay alone.
Just have to back to reality as everyone's chasing a luxurious life,it's just simply looks cruel.
But I don't. What I love is just natural and knowledge,I wish to know more but not get more nonsense.
I always believe that human can always get himself what he wanted but not depend on others.
What others get you is not yours coz you never try it yourself.
Everything seems hard for me right now but think of the time I came over it,that's just nothing,anymore.
I promise myself that I'll never regret because of never try my best and once I did,I'll get what I wanted.
Ignore something that can affects me and I'm take it very serious now as I know how important of my future. I know what I really want and I don't think too much,do what I should do before the time coming. That's all.
There's a possibility to fail my Chinese. It's really difficult to get well.
I feel to give up that sometimes. :(
I'll start the class by tomorrow,gonna stay back after school. :(



2012/02/07

My babe's BIG DAY! ❤

What an AWESOME day for us.
It's Joyce's 17th birthday last night and we had fun a lot.
The moment when we're all together is always the best.Just awesome.
I'll never forget the day.This is the last year for us and I do appreciate it very much.
I believe that we'll get together again if the friendship's true.
And I believe it.
I ate non-stop all the day especially the cake which made by Joyce! :p
You know,I never scare to gain my weight and I won't diet if that's really happen.
Thanks for Joyce's mum to prepared all the food.All are really niceeee!<3
I'll miss it. :)






THREE OF USSS! <3

















TAAADAAA! All the gifts. The bear is obviously CUTE right?? :D
The gift attracted me coz I think she'll like it. At last I asked for few of my friends' opinion and they said this is cute. And yal she loves it! :D



Wrote it so damn fast but all are trueee. :p


OHHHH...A good ending.Hahaha.

We're growing without knowing.
I promise to do better and better if the world's not going to end.And now I'll do my best before it coming.

2011/11/06

Welcome HOLIDAYS everyone! ❤

Gosh...I can't believe the examination was FINISHED!
How exhausted of keep fighting for it,it's been a month.

Sien Ting said he feels like wanna KISS somebody! LOL! :D 

I expected this since last night,I spent a night to write my note named REALISED.
This is something good I wish to share,it's a self-help way which introduce by Carnegie.
Sounds GOOD right? :D
Spend a day from a week to think back and point out things that you think you'd done it wrongly with a strong feeling of regret.Change the things that you pointed out,you'll fix yourself well at your target.
Trust me you'll get younger with this. XD
It reduces your worries in fact. :)

Discuss ambitions with ah Yang everyday,but don't know what to do still.==
Maybe you love this but it won't bargains anything back.SICK.==
Passion on job and passion on money is two different things which categories as replacement for each other,I must prefer one of it with the condition of give up another one.
Someone MOTIVATES me please? 

Seriously,we must appreciate what we have right now.
Especially the matter of friendship.
Once you step into 16st life,you'll realised everything is just flies so fast.
Nobody forces you to be a good boy/girl,teaches you step by step with his patient even care you so much like a lower form pupil.
Homework is getting more and more until you really feel exhausted to keep on catch it up everyday,you never realised you've reduced your sleeping time with your working hard.
Of course,these ain't a trouble but it's just a remind for you that the graduation is not far away from your life,please appreciate EVERYTHING in your life.
For sure you'll feel the stress,it leads to desperate,that is a hard time,you can't come with it alone and you will not,with friends along. :)

I got it.
Be in this class may be senseless for others but it's a meaningful part in my life.
I feel the friendship in stress.
Impression is just nothing when we feel the pain of laughing hard.
You know,it's the best pain in life. ;) ❤
Once we dream of future,we got that it's not far away from now.
When the time we reach our dream is coming,
The feeling of say goodbye is seriously too hard anyway.
Promise to greet and give a hug if we got to see anyone of us in future,is it okay? :)
I treasure EVERYTHING happens with us. :>


Lunch with Francis kid as I promised,he's a quite kind guy.
Had Nadeje afterward.
Thanks Casendra to accompany me interview at HI-STYLE,otherwise I shall not get the job. :D
I saw Ihsan as well when I'm waiting for mum.hee!


I enjoyed the day with Angela and Andrew,laughs a lot and we watched SLEEPWALKER.
Damn it,the sound effect really scary.==
Not very nice as I expected,available in 3D with nothing appears.

Seriously a nice day for me. I got the best pain in my stomach. :D
Sometimes I really glad that I have a friend who has the same interested with me,it's hard to get one.No matter what's his/her gender,I just be the way I'm.
So I realised I just being like a boy more than a girl sometimes,I lost control lost impression when something or someone makes me laugh non-stop.

Flirting is something hard for me,boys are fear to girls be through a boy being way.
Thanks my sista Andrew recommended books for me and helped to carry my mum's things to the car.


I got a new book named ''Foundation of Motivation''. 


Tomorrow I gotta have movie with my dear. ^^
We're free now after the Final.
Expecting a nice day. ^^


Please don't judge me as how you think if you don't even know me,if you are,then you must used to be busybody like aunties in the morning market.
I accept everyone although he/she doesn't means as I.
You can mad on somebody with something wrong he made but you can't hate somebody without any reason.


I'm responsible on how I treat you like a friend but not responsible on how you love me or hate me.
What I wanted is always a friend than a lover,I just wanna concentrate on my study.
You tolerate all when you like me but you blame on me when I can only like you as a friend.
I can accept everything but if you make me feel senseless,that's mean you really be like that.
You're not deserve to insult me as you're being the wrong way and look at yourself at the mirror before you deserve to comment on me.
I hate boastful man anyway.


Sorry that I'm just selfish and I know it.
I respect you but I love myself.
The thing I know is just to be a good friend and daughter. :)



I'm glad to started my life with show my ability to live well.
I got a job and I'm going to be an independent girl. ^^
Once I got to interview I was so scare,but then I succeed and everything seems well with a good starting.Teehee. 

Happy Holiday all dears,may God bless you and enjoy your holidays. ^^ ❤





2011/10/31

31 Oct 11

Well,have a nice talk with Joyce and Chia Wei on last Saturday night,I was in Old Town,that's a raining night.
No any costume and party during Halloween night coz I'm still having exam.
SIGH! They wasted for a month for examination,how can they be so lazy?==
Anyway,I shall keep fighting until the end.

I've keep thinking of what I love to do since I've recovered from the wound.
It's been a year and the thing is I can't comfirm what I really wish to do.
Such a big plan from choosing a course to a school,I wish I would like it and what I study is useful in my career.
So I bought many books about my favorite courses to study while revise like a dog for my SPM.
This might be so stupid coz making myself suffering but then it's an entertainment for me since that is what I interested in.
Fighting is meaningful although it doesn't make sense on study what I dislike zzZ...


I swear,I must go back to Rembia after exam!!!
Gonna have a Prom night in December with my babe! ^.^

Something irritates me last 2 weeks but when the days leave from my upset with my babes accompany and caring along,there's my sunny day again.Muahaha! :D
I have no secret and I tell what happened on me.

Yes,it is a deepest secret in my heart.I felt better from let it go or buried in the deepest again.
It's a long distance memory which pretty with scars,well it couldn't last forever,great.

If you try hard to get it but it doesn't gives any response just accept it fatally.
God will always do the rest on every good of us,he arranges every single thing with his reason behind,so I obey when it really gets hard.
If something leaves you just let it.
If it comes back it means yours.
If it doesn't,it never was and never meant to be.
There's sure one you like but it's not perfect as how you wish in your mind,sad thing is you still love it although you realised  it.
You'll lost more as you're holding something which is not belong to you tightly.It's just like killing yourself to end your life.Even worse than that.
If you dare to falling for someone,then you must be dare to let yourself get out from the relation when everything is over.
Remember of pride of being a girl,no matter how many times you've fell down because of somebody hurt you,certainly you must be tough but you must keep your kindness to everyone including the one who hurts you and the others that speaking bad of you.
Jealousy will turns one looks terrible but kindness makes one looks well every moment.


Ah girl said she love herself more after been wound.
I said I love money more after someone kicked me to the hell. :>

I earn it by myself and I work hard for future,no cares about how hard is it and no worries in future as well.




:)

2011/10/26

26 Oct 11

Must not involve in each others' life anymore.
We're totally changed a lot as what I told h**.
We don't ever become a friend so please,never distract,too. 
I'm sorry that I never wish you well every year,it's too enough ended up with a wish on wall,I can't do much coz I can't get over too much when I was clear.
Dear God,please don't mess up my life again. 
This is too great now. ;)

Girl,go and get him if you love him.
Useless to mad on me,I couldn't do anything in fact.
God arranges the destiny,obey him.
I wish you both sincerely if you get it come true. :)


I love when the sunlight shines on me to wake me up,thanks I was alive with smiles.
I read my beloved book,it cheers me to expect life would gives me surprises,darlings know that and love that as well,exactly a good recommended. ;)


I killed Economic and Perdagangan,it's time for movie and swim with my darlings.
I love the feeling of enjoy movie still,Paranormal3,Love U U,What's your number? and so on.
Gosh I must catch up!
Paranormal with ah girl  Ca and Koh on Thurs.I wish my girl is fine. haiz.

Gonna meet up with my babes after exam,seriously can't wait.

Went to my aunt's Deepavali open house just now.
Gonna attend my cousin's wedding soon,with sari must be something fresh for me.Awaiting...


My dear appeared,gonna share a lot.


I may be a good friend but not a good lover,I never trained so to be.
Men I walked with aren't what people think of,I'm just try to be a friend that's all.
The main purpose of living still is not to care about those who hate you but those who loves you.

Thanks God everyday and I expect sunshine,I believe in what I expected. :)



2011/10/24

22+23 Oct ❤ The Best Day Ever. ;)

终于让我休息一个星期,一直这样考下去真的会窒息,一个月了。
庆祝AH GIRL 的生日一整天,然后疯了一天。
这说的上是一种快乐,这些日子我撑得好久,累死了,老天爱我,还死不了。
然后她就笑了一整天啦~忙死了~
在里面跑来跑去我都找的累死人~哈哈!
生日快乐啦~我们都很爱你~你要好好的生活,好好考试,然后好好的当你的STEWARDESS,然后幸福很久很久。只要你快乐,我就会很快乐了。 :) <3
He asked me don't lean,but he did.Gosh!


我又犯了错迟回家,但是是很值得的。都很快乐。放肆一次,解脱了,结果心里舒服多了。
Your secret is safe with me. ;)

2011/10/14

14 Oct 11

Finally it's Friday and I done English papers!My God loves me. :D
I can rest well for today.Am going to library tomorrow.
No outing mood.Reading poison.


Halo kids,I know you guys have released from PMR,but there's no need to shout like nut to spoke such things.Exactly come from villages.There will be your turn soon.
No manners.
Play the boom some more,you suffering from mental retardation?


Now I have half of the day to read my books before the coming of tomorrow.


I love a person who can loves himself than me but not admire himself,this is much worth and priceless.
Just an express ,no worries.==
I shall keep myself unavailable until I do well in SPM. Tehee! :D


Ouch!!I love him!!

14 Oct 11

每次考试一到就给我来出状况,很要我的命。 浪费了我六个小时半的时间昏睡。==
当投入与书本里的时候,还真的吸收很快。咖啡还真的是很深奥的滋味,无法形容。哈哈。
当下总是很辛苦,不过很铭心刻苦。
我会啃书啃到很心甘情愿,然后安心的睡我的觉。
希望看到那呈现在我的试卷上的数字时我会没有形象。
这种感觉很赞。

明天考英文。要冷静。
难得又是一个星期四,我会很兴奋。通常这一天的睡眠时间很不标准。
现在听曹格的歌,看一本迟来的书,极品。 :D






不管有些事有些话有多不堪,我需要给自己信心。
我不是没有问题的人,因为我是凡人,所以连我自己都在解读自己,问题只是在于我把自己牵涉,我从不想麻烦别人。
当家人对自己的信任不稳的时候,说的话有一点的伤害到自尊的时候,可以做的只是继续守住自己的原则,我不会兑现别人的不信任。
我不再当错中乱,乱中错的人。

不久以前我觉得爸妈看不到我好的事情,那种感觉糟透了。
但是现在只有当我觉得好的条件也附属在我身上的时候那才是最好的解释。


我想泡电影。


我是很自私的人,纠缠的发生对我来说还太早。

2011/10/11

11 Oct 11

Final in coming in another 24 hours.
I absent today to study at home.I can't sleep anymore.
Went to Movida on Wednesday with ah girl and Koh Yue Sun,three peoples also can buang like nuts haha!And then went for movie with Chia Wei on Saturday.Studied with Joyce,Aaron and Bryan at Jusco,it's fun to get a special friend,so nice,Joyce and I keep laughing in Coffee Bean! XD
I love them always,never lost them. <3

I didn't sleep at all last night for my study,too stress.
C'on I need confidence to fight for tomorrow!
Coffee can always wake me up!
 

Alright I blocked you.You got to know the reasons.
You're a kinder garden teacher but what you did is just all wolf being.
You involved in twice of my relationship before and messed up everything.
I bear it all at last because of your innocent acting.WTF==
You may think of I'm care about them so I get mad but please this is just another thing and unfortunately I knew what you did.
You look pure and innocent but I know about myself as well,I'll never wound anyone although I wounded.Take both of them then,who cares?


I really get mad that's why!

2011/10/02

2 October 11

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO OUR BEST BRO DARYL LWEE !!
Wish you're glad with everything of yesterday!!
We're so crazy last night!We walked under a very hot weather like sizzling fishes and then took bus to Jusco,

An accident happened when we going to get down from the bus,good heaven don't ever try to stand on the stages coz the doors could hurt people.
The K box seemed like a club with the attendance of us,PARTY ROCK!!
When I got call from ah girl I was scared man,she said she's in Johor!But finally she came with ikan and Xiao Jun,she'll always makes thing comes true,LOVESS!!
I love them them so muchhhhhhh!

My life turned to normal mode right now,there's a long time I never been wake up so early in the morning without a clock.
I realised how's the feeling of release from the hell since I don't even touch my book today,I'm so nervous with my final but then it's settled.yeahhhhhhh!! ==
Met with Ah Man and Li Pin and then I saw my beloved cousin and Iris jie jie was having sushi in 一番屋...I wanted to go to Breek's cafe so badly!!I don't mind to become fatty actually!
And then went for a movie.The Socerer and the White Snake.You guys must see that!The effect is damn nice! Especially the actress,she's so pretty and I envy her black iris!
I'd promise Jordan to watch it second round just now.
I comfirm he won't laughs like insane inside and being like a monkey anymore since he attracted by this movie.
Do you used to heard somebody can laugh loudly when he's watching Insidious? He must be the first one lah! Insane uncle!不像样!I'll throw my shoes towards his face if he laugh some more!hahaha!
I can shower in the cinema for a day,as long as I can enjoy it very well,I'll do it one day with my dear.She loves that too :D
Exhausted man!!My blood circulation isn't good lol!
I felt so shy today man!My heartbeat keeps increasing as long as I sit on the table,my nervous betrayed me,it stuck my mouth when I'm going to answer something,aiyer I hate myself ><

Stay me away lah my shy ><
I met a lots of my friends,those greets has made a good day.


Went for dinner and then they went to Paya Mengkuang,I'd rather stay at home alone instead of go there,those children always make me desperate!==


Something would be the best without keep changing anymore,my heart measures it.
Thanks God everyday. <3

2011/09/28

My heartbeat was keep increasing last night.
When I close my eyes and think of Final,I feel so nervous and scare of there's a red mark on my paper!==
Now the chapters is getting harder,or I should check my brain?Is it getting more like dumb? 
14 days to go,what should I do now? My brain is empty,where's what have I studied? S.O.S! :(

2011/09/26

快乐后一切却搞砸了。
我们该很团结,但是这个时候要很公平。
就这样的没事了,怎么样都好还是要笑着面对。
大部分的人都是会贪新鲜的,我也承认我自己会。对于朋友也是这一回事。
我更加承认我是生气的,但是心理上总要接受。成为一种性格。
对事不对人,而且那不是重点,个人是个人的问题,与他的群组无关。
所以算了吧,我们要的是快乐,不是问题连连。
真希望那会是没有距离的一天。


所以我要开始要求,相信,接收。
最后拥有。


休止符。 ==
我现在不快乐,但我会笑得很灿烂 ==

2011/09/25

24 Sept 11

I walked almost for a day.I slept at 4 something last night and wake up at 7 something.Have flu and normal illness.Urrghh.
My legs are cramp RIGHT NOW.I tried few ways to treat it but still can't get well.


The day which I had one coffee per day without take any meal.I got a abscess on my teeth again.Desperate lah it's with me been years.


Ya there,I was stress because of someone lack of secure today,SWEAT! hahaha!
Those eyes make me lost more of my confidence,there's nothing left on me.LOL.

Went to Jusco for a movie.
That's not horrible at all but quite fun at last,just got no point.
You'll use your pet's hand to touch your I-pad after you watched it. XD
Thais look pretty in fact,mostly like Korean.


Went to meet my dear,her mum's off to Egypt by tomorrow.Chill for a week !!
We shared a lot,it's touched.

Went to Tea Milk as usual ,the Oreo is always the best choice for us.
Watched Johnny English,I do love him,cool as his Rolls!! :D
Met my old schoolmates as well,nice greet. Laughs along today! ^^



No lies at the beginning of a destiny,please.
I've no idea to be trust on what I've listened or seen.
I'm just ORDINARY.


















Don't keep on call to me when I'm not really in a great mode,it's late,too.Irritate.==
We've no relation anymore kay.












Single makes happiness.






This is nice.

2011/09/23

23 Sept 11

We settled my dear outfit trouble yesterday. XD
I got the release date of Paranormal Activity 3!! It's on 21th of October!! Maybe yeah! Thanks Bryan!
Ouh yeah can't wait to see that with my friends!! Who else wanna join?Let's go together. :D



My English teacher lost control today,no one knows what happened to her.
She scolded somebody so sudden and she stopped teaching afterward,no one offened her actually.
The point is she asked us to do the essay by ourselves she won't teach anymore.Alright I start to write the first paragraph but she gave the point afterward,I erased my book for few times until it looks dirty.==
The title is LOVE!
Fantastic,hahaha!




My book's full of liquid paper,full of the signs of false.


Had fun today with Ah Yang Ah Lee and Ah Loh.
We drew a big combination of diminshed MY MAP!
There are few garbage characters.XD
We relief hateful well.Haha.

We did this with reasons kay.

Seriously I can't bear it.
I can't get why must they do such shallow things when they get to see another girl beside one of their group.
Like shit you know==
Don't look at me with your eyes full with hates without any REASON.I've tried to close my eyes and thought it like nothing.
If you wanna show off with a very loudly noise behind of me,GO AHEAD. 
Why show off?I got answer for you,because of the lacking of confidence.
It irritates me,we're the one too live in city,show off-ING is just too much,and we got to know the reality.
What you like to do with guys isn't our business,nothing for us if you aren't reach the limited of us.
Phewww~


I'M PRAYING TO MY GOD,NOT TO MEET HER BY TOMORROW!


Ouh yeah,this song is so nice.I heart this.↓

 

2011/09/22

Goes right now.

Lots of my mummy's friends have always tell her I'm nice.Because of I could fix my mind even mood by SLEEPING.I'll always be fine after all.
Is this something good from me? - -
LOL.
Now I'm fine,I just woke up from my sweet dream haha!
I received message from my dear and Li Pin and else.I always enjoying the moment that we chat through SMS but be sure it's ALWAYS with credit~

Jordan has invited me to go Movida on Friday,he's cracked for no reason recently.I'll not be the spoilter and I'll not been there,am suffering of the smell of smoke.Enjoy my dear,you gotta make your ''dream'' really come true. XD

My mummy bought me contact lenses,I don't like those over 15mm one.14mm is the best one.
She always says that I look terrible and old without make up,people would says I'm her sis if I've outing with her.This is not funny at all.==


Expecting for Saturday :) 
I asked my dear to seek something from her wardrobe,she still has no idea. XD 

Final seems not far away from me and the holiday would be short for me.The days seem FULL.
I'll do my best,God will do the rest. Thank you.




I HEART THIS!!
I'm thinking to change my phone after the witch has stolen my phone.==

I wonder the baby Donald's so CUTEEEEEE!! :D


Off to revision.No more relation pls girl.
Stupid folio,it's killing me.
I have no enough time,stay away from facebook,I hate its feature as well.
Something irritates me again.
Willing to have my Chinese oral tomorrow,I haunch that I can't get it well,my speak isn't formal and like dumb.==
I wish to drop it! But my mum will not agree with that. You never know how difficult of it! I wish to leave it blank sometimes.
HEADACHE.
Well,nice weather and nice greet from friends,nice jokes in class too.
I must be careful tomorrow,some of them ready to hide my things.Nut.==


Every sweet thing isn't means really nice.
Seek for something real to me,the reality isn't the factor.


I wanted to know the release date of PARANORMAL ACTIVITY 3 so badly!!!
I prefer comedy and something like this! ↑

2011/09/21

21 Sept 11

不知不觉,10月就快来了。
美好的日子总是过得特别快。16 都已经够痛苦了,相信后来不简单。hmmmm~ :/
我想我的account老师睡了一个月。该交folio的日子我们才开始要飞很快。
Bryan说他们学校做完了的时候,我真的是一脸的无奈。啧~
FINAL和folio同时送上门,我还真的是招架不住,咳。
我快死在书群里了。
为什么我一直失眠?无奈啦。


FACEBOOK 又换pattern了。
我还没来得及习惯就被耍的团团转。zzz~

世界变了,变得不三不四。
所以我真的很想删掉一些人。
我知道拉现在最红的就是比LIKE多不多嘛,然后在街上看到你户口上的哪个人就好像看到动物园跑出来的猩猩一样讨论老半天。
我受不了这些人的大头症,让他们自我感觉走路特别有风的大头症。让我需要当个瞎子看不见,我没有被影响的习惯。
存在我的户口里浪费空间。

Nah~here's the LINK.

世界上最不缺的就是美女,别把自己看得太重。


哦~Johnny English 超爆笑,我们从小到大的偶像。 ^^
他的MR.BEAN 是做给神经病人看的,可是我们怎么也投入了。 :]
这个心理医生认真时是帅的,哈。

周末时,我爱见见朋友,see whether they are fine or not.
They're always the part of my life.

这个星期要找ah Man.

我最爱的茶,什么口味都很nice。哈。

噢。对了。谢谢她的浅笑。
但我不习惯回应虚伪的人性。这种人从来不存在我的生活里。

快要隐居lui lui 家了,自身难保,好一个变态的。》《



ah girl生气了。快快好起来,我在这里。 :D
我想念蔡嘉薇,快看到她了。 :D

一个人的日子还真是好过。
完了。我状态不佳。

2011/09/13

最近很悲哀。我的基因有问题,没一点是好的。
除了读书还是读书,有时觉得我像是死人。
肥的快,就像是海绵。
我真的觉得我烂透了!人都是超级的现实,我知道我的份量轻到像羽毛~哪里都不缺我嘛对不对。
我真想把自己画出来然后如何如何的叙述自己烂到怎样的极点,然后我跟你说我一无所有。无奈。
欺负我啦,我越看自己越讨厌。==
咳。 :[