It's about my holiday! =]

Ouh fine,I might fail my Chinese paper,I think so.
Because of all the questions is just over hard for me and one question per six marks.I really out of the way,that's why I left some of  the 名句精华questions BLANK!So disheartless!
And even the accouting also...Gosh...I really don't have enough time to finish it!So wasted on what I had prepared for!
Something really suprised me during the holiday.Sad matter anyway and we still can't face it optimist.I'm still feel scary now.
So sorry to that za bor coz didn't rush for the date on Sunday.And Chia wei also,coz we decided for outing on Sunday also but becauseof my family matter so we have to delayed it.
I feel so bad.


Forget about that.
Hmm,had watched I AM NUMBER FOUR and BEASTLY!Such a nice movies ever and I falled on the guy!XD
If you had watched that you will know who I am mention about!XD
Beside Zac Efron he is the another guy that I feel like falled on him!Just engaging!!haha!
And I started to waste money again,shop around and eat this and that wherever I am~~But then it's okay,should relax first coz it is really desperately tired during the schooling time lol
I would like to having Nadeje Cheese favour layer cake,not yet try that before.Yesterday had the Chocolate favour one and today was the original one.
And the ice cream by Haaden Dazz,go and take a try guys!All kind are very nice!
Again the place that I yam cha usually~~OLD TOWN~My life would suck without it!XD
My weight is increasing non-stop I think....hehe =]
Again my skin,getting alike sun burn...........So terrible!!T T
And mommy asks me,still don't want to cut off your hair arh????It's already grows too long!..
I wish to cut too but I got no idea and also no time to manage it!*I am such a lazy girl=]*
Continue to hanging out tomorrow.Willing prepare to school and focus on Saturday =]
I promise!haha!*ISN'T JOKE!*=]

11 March 11

Although everyday is just almost the same,but I just with it.
In fact,I really don't know what I'm thinking about the relationship...Besides complaint,and there is just complaint,that is all.No more else...
My fault also,related with me is just like related with a mechine only,what happened with me?!
Maybe I can only search it by myself.
When I started to suit the environment without your accompany,why I'm still persist to live according my through...but never think about you and my life is just alike as when I was single but get better...
Just so independent...Is that good?
I feel so bad,sorry..


Forget about it.
Hmm...Just wish to finish my examination faster and I'm plan to going out x)
It's raining,I love it.I feel so peace now and without any perssimist right now...
Maybe I shouldn't tolerate with those nonsenses,but it's just stingy attitude.
I never say that wanna give up my future but I'm still catch up everyone's step.
We're different.
Just quit your world,coz it's just not suit me.
Like to compare result to others included me,your mia pasal.
Wanna talk colk so much on me,keep on.
All account student is just idiot like hell
Keep lah look down,ass you

9 March 11

I'm not live with according to your mood.
Get lost if you are not satisfied,this is my life!
I deserve to do anything that I wanted and chase my dream.
I keep a distance among,I just wish to avoid more argue,even there's no your belief on me I'm still here.
Stingy?Keep that lah I won't tolerate but pretend see nothing.
I won't feel sorry to myself coz I really trying my best,shut up if didn't see that and I no need your prove.
I won't control by anyone.Warn lastly!

丁当-很爱过

4 March 11

Ehem.Firstly wanna sorry to Sotong Francis and Denis :P
Coz yesterday I alreaDy went out XP

Well such a good2 night yesterday =)

Relene and Casendra got their pink LOLIPOP!

Whee,the theme inside and the LED on the cover are awesome~!

Again to T-bowl and again that waiter says that already close order and six more group of customer is still waiting,and will be close on 10+,so we just go away to other place lol.

So disapointed coz we've plan it few days ago and keep on await  =( 

And we keep saying what to eat tonight and wanna try this try that,manatau ........................aiz!=(

And then went to Mr.Dynasty.

I love there so much coz it's quite alike as FRIENDS that I always go with my cousins.

Relax and enjoyable place.

Col let me see KYRA's picture!Ouh~I love her so much~eyes super duper big.Desperately addicted!

Ouh~and the accounting punya ''tunai'' and ''jualan''...damnfully beh tahan that~laugh seii me  XDD

Went ELEVEN afterward.

So long didn't go there on Friday already~Not so crowd as Saturday happy hour.

We called one bucket of Carsberg..*

Anyway really such a nice day and awesome as I awaited for =)

Whole body damn pain now*getting old................................*

p/s:ouh~Examination gonna get start......................................

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*Pissed...* Respect please,What willing benifits you for looking down others

*Dying without knowing the causes*...................................

Work hard so that will not live suffer in the future life,and even get the higher education.

It's just nothing for only addicted to others that succeed,but not ourselves.

And it is really feeling not well while keep on looking down by others.I hate that feeling and feel like wanna scold out how pissed I am!

Now!I just wanna spread out all the temper that keep inside for so long,forgive that I can't be perspective now.

You know how suffer I'm while heard that instead of tolerate of yours' words?!It's just fucking pissed with that!Why being like this?Even people got nothing wrong also wanna looking for that to satisfy your sake that wanna get a reason for look down at one.

How's that if the person is you?I think you will go back and cry at home and don't dare to face others some more.

But it's fine and I still can eat well sleep well even study well without think about those idiot words.Don't worry those words doesn't affect me.

p/s:Besides work hard and live tough I got no other shortcut to get success nearer.

25 Feb 11

Yesterday went to T-bowl,and I tried so hard to reach there!
Coz someone really so bitchy always simply tell my dad this and that,f you really make me pissed off and I really hate you.Bring lots of trouble to me and wasting my time badly!
Think through your brain lah this is all my business and my own privacy why gossip so much!
You're not deserve to shout at me as how you want,you aren't my mom!
My mom will give me own time to have fun besides study well.*PISSED*

Forget about it.
Ouh ya,went there with Relene them and really had fun there :)
But one thing is we didn't eat the ice-cream coz the machine was spoilt.
So just have a drink call 肥皂水~
So cute of the name XD
I love their design concept so much.And those food and drink are exclusive also :)
Its outside looks pretty well like a design toilet but inside was different XD
Go and take a try guys ^^ Really not bad :)
And thanks for Relene and Mike to sent me back,really appreciate a lot =)

11 Feb 11

Such a nice day too!=)Everythings goes fine and I was agigated and sitting fine there during the lessons.
Many things appear in my head in a second.I've to ask myself why but finally I still got no answer.Time and some matters could change something and even changed ourselves.
Since when I already just let it go without any knowing,I never wonder that.
Maybe this is what's we always mention forgot a person,a special bussiness without try our best.
The most naturally way to let it go and never try to find that somemore.I like it 
I wonder something has gone,and I don't wish to refer back and my decision already made all this by now,and I won't regret on the optional that I made.I comfirm that.
I had view someone's status and I still know what you actually wanna say.
But all was already passed and will not travel back anymore.
Be happy when we're still friend that know each other,appreciate when we're just stay the best way like this.I just wish to stay like this.
If the time could really travel back and bring me back to few years ago,I won't get this start and I won't hurt someone like a silly until now the guilty still along with me.
It's better to keep our relation as friendship instead make hurts and even embarrassing lastly.
I know you mostly well as the relation as a friend,directly to interact as a friend,that is all what can I do.
At loves willing become hates deeply at last,but except you.Still can be friend.
I appreciate the friendship btw us.


P/S:
Don't know that,I'm so sickening with all about love now.
Tell me what you want actually.
I hate the way like this.better split if wanna stay this.

6 Feb 11

很想回家，不想读书的日子都呆在那里...

我宁愿妈不要那么忙，给我时间，我需要对她坦白我应该坦白的事。对。是懂了，但我想承认。

我不想看别人的脸色做人，也不想每一次被说的时候只可以忍气吞声，还要我妈为了给你一点尊敬而做得不是她自己，好的，我忍了。

只是我保姆的人，却比我妈过分。如果我忘记尊敬这一回事,我会为自己去反驳，如果我真有这选择。

阿姨说，要像你表姐一样，就大方一点的带回来。

我都知道。

但我心里面的压力真的好大...我不想为了任何人而放弃他，没人明白我多心痛。

我真的很想要为自己说句合理的话，沉默太久了。

什么新年，我比平时消沉多了。快乐也没有了。这时候的我开始沉受压力了，不需要给我多大的帮助，在我身边就好。

我不想听谁说的什么话，但我确定的是他值得我去学会勇敢面对我没办法面对的一切。

我真的想回家。我不想对着一个没有关系的人说她自己的话。但我时间做人最基本的尊重，因为我是后辈，所以忍着，所以沉默。即使心里是难受的。

有谁的心是不会受伤的，伤到自尊的时候，会流泪对吧。

妈咪说，明天最后一天了，要开学了，你还是得面对她啊。

为什么要怕她，那想过我的感觉吗，我的自尊算是什么...并不是我不想面对，而是我不想对自己没有交代，丢了自尊，更不想放弃他。知道吗，你们不知道的事他对我来说很重要。

今天迟回了。

出去以前听了妈说要回去面对现实的时候我失落了。

当时在外婆家，大家都在后面凑热闹，厅里没人，所以我一个人去了客厅。

听了那句话以后，心里很是难受。但也没办法诉苦。

有一种感觉，就是心里难受得防止眼泪流下。

我想他了，需要他。但是我尝试自己沉默的渡过了时间。给自己最大的安慰。

我说不出我是如何的难过，但我真的没办法开心起来。

我遇见他了，两分钟。

其实安慰很大，但我没办法跟你。让我一个人走走绕绕一边想你，我说不出太多的话。我心里真的很痛。

距离电影的时间很长，所以我有时间慢慢地走。反正就我一个，就不需要给予别人多大的表情。我有对你发脾气了，但让我好吗。至少我的情绪告诉你一切·我是真的再烦的。

我其实知道他是不开心。但是让我静静，我不想给予你敷衍。

我的眼泪从下午忍到了电影开始不久不这样的不受控制了。

看的是喜剧，但我却流泪了。并非我一个人的原因。

照常投入电影，但我还是流泪了，想办法掩饰了。但到了最后我真的没办法。心里真的好难过。

我开始胡思乱想，今天会不会是我最后一次看到他了。那天去的海边，看的电影会不会是最后一场了。他说过还要去不同的海边，但是不是就是最后一次了.

内心在不停地跟自己说话，想最坏的结果，然后想正面的办法。

手机来不及充电就出了门。

一个人坐在座位上，流泪的时候突然冲动的发了信息给他。

决定隐藏自己最难过的一切，然后我跟他说，你值得我去做我没办法办到的事。

因为他，我会勇敢一点，坚强一点。

我心里压抑的感觉，但我告诉自己，因为他值得，所以我要坚持从开始到现在没改变的一切，累积的一切。如果真的被说得再怎么过分，要记得他一直都在，不会离开，所以要忍着眼泪别哭，他说要忍着脾气，所以我不发脾气。我都明白，因为他值得。

心好痛。在厕所里呆了好久，终于能一个人的哭泣。学会勇敢的同时，想起他我真的害怕。

每当跟你看完一场电影的时候，出去是的心情都是一样的平静，微笑着·

但这一次不同了。失落的离开，像刚看完悲剧。沉得我不知道该说什么。

现在你生气了，对不起迟回家让你担心了。

平时我会发你脾气，但现在我发不出脾气，让你气我。都发在我身上，总好过你难过。

从在一起开始，我唯一希望的就只是不要把他从我身边调走，我答应会珍惜他。因为我真的爱他。

CNY、Most happy CELEBRATION for me in a year =)

我期待好久的日子来了，但我一点都不觉得有什么好开心的。

本来就好好没事了啊、为什么一定要在这个时候来了那么多的事。

我的忍耐是有限制的，不要白那个脸色给我看，到我忍不住的时候就别怪我。我是认真的再说。

年一过，或许就来个大突破了。

选择给自己最大的安慰的那一刻，就应该要知道不能停止，受其害怕接着走。

面临欺骗的那一刻，就应该要知道免了对别人的信任，加持对自己的信任。

受伤的那一刻，都知道要坚强了。

这一年要很充实。只要什么事都往好的方面去想，不害怕的实践一切，是没办法退步的。

始终坚持的东西，免了心机吧孩子。

玩不起就罢了，但那真的不需要。

太过的幼稚，太过的天真，也浪费时间。

我很累。

每一次没有事情就突然不开心了起来。明明就好好的，就没事的。

但是就没有原因的，我也不想回了。如果那会导致越闹越严重的话。

不知道什么时候开始，对于感情这回事，我没有想要吵架的念头。

并不是没有脾气，但我找不到那兴致。更找不到吵下去的理由。

当这一刻来临的时候，拿起电话但我下不了手给予你任何的回复。我想让它就安静的渡过这一晚，在我醒来以后或许也就没事了吧。

并非逃避，是因为这个问题没有答案。

就很突然的发生，然后你一句我一句，没完没了。

如果可以，我想就这样无理取闹，闹脾气。

但问题是我闹不起来了，反而安静了。

我不想在乎这门安静了。

感情，平静就好。

2 Feb 11

We're just fine last Sunday,hung for a day,talked until I don't wish to turn back to my normal life.
And we're still fine yesterday night.
I love to end the day by you accompany me to talk until I can falled asleep tightly.
I dreamed,and I got nothing to worry until I was awake.
But again,as last few weeks.
Again about nonsence.
Actualy there're nothing to discuss somemore but why do everytime the problem keep pop out
I don't understand that.
That feeling is worst than a split.
I feel like wanna avoid from text you somemore if got nothing special matter.
I'm affraid of it.
Stop all that.
Feel so empty.We aren't anything