Such a nice day too!=)Everythings goes fine and I was agigated and sitting fine there during the lessons.
Many things appear in my head in a second.I've to ask myself why but finally I still got no answer.Time and some matters could change something and even changed ourselves.
Since when I already just let it go without any knowing,I never wonder that.
Maybe this is what's we always mention forgot a person,a special bussiness without try our best.
The most naturally way to let it go and never try to find that somemore.I like it
I wonder something has gone,and I don't wish to refer back and my decision already made all this by now,and I won't regret on the optional that I made.I comfirm that.
I had view someone's status and I still know what you actually wanna say.
But all was already passed and will not travel back anymore.
Be happy when we're still friend that know each other,appreciate when we're just stay the best way like this.I just wish to stay like this.
If the time could really travel back and bring me back to few years ago,I won't get this start and I won't hurt someone like a silly until now the guilty still along with me.
It's better to keep our relation as friendship instead make hurts and even embarrassing lastly.
I know you mostly well as the relation as a friend,directly to interact as a friend,that is all what can I do.
At loves willing become hates deeply at last,but except you.Still can be friend.
I appreciate the friendship btw us.
P/S:
Don't know that,I'm so sickening with all about love now.
Tell me what you want actually.
I hate the way like this.better split if wanna stay this.
2011/02/12
2011/02/06
6 Feb 11
很想回家，不想读书的日子都呆在那里...
我宁愿妈不要那么忙，给我时间，我需要对她坦白我应该坦白的事。对。是懂了，但我想承认。
我不想看别人的脸色做人，也不想每一次被说的时候只可以忍气吞声，还要我妈为了给你一点尊敬而做得不是她自己，好的，我忍了。
只是我保姆的人，却比我妈过分。如果我忘记尊敬这一回事,我会为自己去反驳，如果我真有这选择。
阿姨说，要像你表姐一样，就大方一点的带回来。
我都知道。
但我心里面的压力真的好大...我不想为了任何人而放弃他，没人明白我多心痛。
我真的很想要为自己说句合理的话，沉默太久了。
什么新年，我比平时消沉多了。快乐也没有了。这时候的我开始沉受压力了，不需要给我多大的帮助，在我身边就好。
我不想听谁说的什么话，但我确定的是他值得我去学会勇敢面对我没办法面对的一切。
我真的想回家。我不想对着一个没有关系的人说她自己的话。但我时间做人最基本的尊重，因为我是后辈，所以忍着，所以沉默。即使心里是难受的。
有谁的心是不会受伤的，伤到自尊的时候，会流泪对吧。
妈咪说，明天最后一天了，要开学了，你还是得面对她啊。
为什么要怕她，那想过我的感觉吗，我的自尊算是什么...并不是我不想面对，而是我不想对自己没有交代，丢了自尊，更不想放弃他。知道吗，你们不知道的事他对我来说很重要。
今天迟回了。
出去以前听了妈说要回去面对现实的时候我失落了。
当时在外婆家，大家都在后面凑热闹，厅里没人，所以我一个人去了客厅。
听了那句话以后，心里很是难受。但也没办法诉苦。
有一种感觉，就是心里难受得防止眼泪流下。
我想他了，需要他。但是我尝试自己沉默的渡过了时间。给自己最大的安慰。
我说不出我是如何的难过，但我真的没办法开心起来。
我遇见他了，两分钟。
其实安慰很大，但我没办法跟你。让我一个人走走绕绕一边想你，我说不出太多的话。我心里真的很痛。
距离电影的时间很长，所以我有时间慢慢地走。反正就我一个，就不需要给予别人多大的表情。我有对你发脾气了，但让我好吗。至少我的情绪告诉你一切·我是真的再烦的。
我其实知道他是不开心。但是让我静静，我不想给予你敷衍。
我的眼泪从下午忍到了电影开始不久不这样的不受控制了。
看的是喜剧，但我却流泪了。并非我一个人的原因。
照常投入电影，但我还是流泪了，想办法掩饰了。但到了最后我真的没办法。心里真的好难过。
我开始胡思乱想，今天会不会是我最后一次看到他了。那天去的海边，看的电影会不会是最后一场了。他说过还要去不同的海边，但是不是就是最后一次了.
内心在不停地跟自己说话，想最坏的结果，然后想正面的办法。
手机来不及充电就出了门。
一个人坐在座位上，流泪的时候突然冲动的发了信息给他。
决定隐藏自己最难过的一切，然后我跟他说，你值得我去做我没办法办到的事。
因为他，我会勇敢一点，坚强一点。
我心里压抑的感觉，但我告诉自己，因为他值得，所以我要坚持从开始到现在没改变的一切，累积的一切。如果真的被说得再怎么过分，要记得他一直都在，不会离开，所以要忍着眼泪别哭，他说要忍着脾气，所以我不发脾气。我都明白，因为他值得。
心好痛。在厕所里呆了好久，终于能一个人的哭泣。学会勇敢的同时，想起他我真的害怕。
每当跟你看完一场电影的时候，出去是的心情都是一样的平静，微笑着·
但这一次不同了。失落的离开，像刚看完悲剧。沉得我不知道该说什么。
现在你生气了，对不起迟回家让你担心了。
平时我会发你脾气，但现在我发不出脾气，让你气我。都发在我身上，总好过你难过。
从在一起开始，我唯一希望的就只是不要把他从我身边调走，我答应会珍惜他。因为我真的爱他。
我宁愿妈不要那么忙，给我时间，我需要对她坦白我应该坦白的事。对。是懂了，但我想承认。
我不想看别人的脸色做人，也不想每一次被说的时候只可以忍气吞声，还要我妈为了给你一点尊敬而做得不是她自己，好的，我忍了。
只是我保姆的人，却比我妈过分。如果我忘记尊敬这一回事,我会为自己去反驳，如果我真有这选择。
阿姨说，要像你表姐一样，就大方一点的带回来。
我都知道。
但我心里面的压力真的好大...我不想为了任何人而放弃他，没人明白我多心痛。
我真的很想要为自己说句合理的话，沉默太久了。
什么新年，我比平时消沉多了。快乐也没有了。这时候的我开始沉受压力了，不需要给我多大的帮助，在我身边就好。
我不想听谁说的什么话，但我确定的是他值得我去学会勇敢面对我没办法面对的一切。
我真的想回家。我不想对着一个没有关系的人说她自己的话。但我时间做人最基本的尊重，因为我是后辈，所以忍着，所以沉默。即使心里是难受的。
有谁的心是不会受伤的，伤到自尊的时候，会流泪对吧。
妈咪说，明天最后一天了，要开学了，你还是得面对她啊。
为什么要怕她，那想过我的感觉吗，我的自尊算是什么...并不是我不想面对，而是我不想对自己没有交代，丢了自尊，更不想放弃他。知道吗，你们不知道的事他对我来说很重要。
今天迟回了。
出去以前听了妈说要回去面对现实的时候我失落了。
当时在外婆家，大家都在后面凑热闹，厅里没人，所以我一个人去了客厅。
听了那句话以后，心里很是难受。但也没办法诉苦。
有一种感觉，就是心里难受得防止眼泪流下。
我想他了，需要他。但是我尝试自己沉默的渡过了时间。给自己最大的安慰。
我说不出我是如何的难过，但我真的没办法开心起来。
我遇见他了，两分钟。
其实安慰很大，但我没办法跟你。让我一个人走走绕绕一边想你，我说不出太多的话。我心里真的很痛。
距离电影的时间很长，所以我有时间慢慢地走。反正就我一个，就不需要给予别人多大的表情。我有对你发脾气了，但让我好吗。至少我的情绪告诉你一切·我是真的再烦的。
我其实知道他是不开心。但是让我静静，我不想给予你敷衍。
我的眼泪从下午忍到了电影开始不久不这样的不受控制了。
看的是喜剧，但我却流泪了。并非我一个人的原因。
照常投入电影，但我还是流泪了，想办法掩饰了。但到了最后我真的没办法。心里真的好难过。
我开始胡思乱想，今天会不会是我最后一次看到他了。那天去的海边，看的电影会不会是最后一场了。他说过还要去不同的海边，但是不是就是最后一次了.
内心在不停地跟自己说话，想最坏的结果，然后想正面的办法。
手机来不及充电就出了门。
一个人坐在座位上，流泪的时候突然冲动的发了信息给他。
决定隐藏自己最难过的一切，然后我跟他说，你值得我去做我没办法办到的事。
因为他，我会勇敢一点，坚强一点。
我心里压抑的感觉，但我告诉自己，因为他值得，所以我要坚持从开始到现在没改变的一切，累积的一切。如果真的被说得再怎么过分，要记得他一直都在，不会离开，所以要忍着眼泪别哭，他说要忍着脾气，所以我不发脾气。我都明白，因为他值得。
心好痛。在厕所里呆了好久，终于能一个人的哭泣。学会勇敢的同时，想起他我真的害怕。
每当跟你看完一场电影的时候，出去是的心情都是一样的平静，微笑着·
但这一次不同了。失落的离开，像刚看完悲剧。沉得我不知道该说什么。
现在你生气了，对不起迟回家让你担心了。
平时我会发你脾气，但现在我发不出脾气，让你气我。都发在我身上，总好过你难过。
从在一起开始，我唯一希望的就只是不要把他从我身边调走，我答应会珍惜他。因为我真的爱他。
2011/02/02
CNY、Most happy CELEBRATION for me in a year =)
我期待好久的日子来了，但我一点都不觉得有什么好开心的。
本来就好好没事了啊、为什么一定要在这个时候来了那么多的事。
我的忍耐是有限制的，不要白那个脸色给我看，到我忍不住的时候就别怪我。我是认真的再说。
我很累。
每一次没有事情就突然不开心了起来。明明就好好的，就没事的。
但是就没有原因的，我也不想回了。如果那会导致越闹越严重的话。
不知道什么时候开始，对于感情这回事，我没有想要吵架的念头。
并不是没有脾气，但我找不到那兴致。更找不到吵下去的理由。
当这一刻来临的时候，拿起电话但我下不了手给予你任何的回复。我想让它就安静的渡过这一晚，在我醒来以后或许也就没事了吧。
并非逃避，是因为这个问题没有答案。
就很突然的发生，然后你一句我一句，没完没了。
如果可以，我想就这样无理取闹，闹脾气。
但问题是我闹不起来了，反而安静了。
我不想在乎这门安静了。
感情，平静就好。
本来就好好没事了啊、为什么一定要在这个时候来了那么多的事。
我的忍耐是有限制的，不要白那个脸色给我看，到我忍不住的时候就别怪我。我是认真的再说。
年一过，或许就来个大突破了。
选择给自己最大的安慰的那一刻，就应该要知道不能停止，受其害怕接着走。
面临欺骗的那一刻，就应该要知道免了对别人的信任，加持对自己的信任。
受伤的那一刻，都知道要坚强了。
这一年要很充实。只要什么事都往好的方面去想，不害怕的实践一切，是没办法退步的。
始终坚持的东西，免了心机吧孩子。
玩不起就罢了，但那真的不需要。
太过的幼稚，太过的天真，也浪费时间。
我很累。
每一次没有事情就突然不开心了起来。明明就好好的，就没事的。
但是就没有原因的，我也不想回了。如果那会导致越闹越严重的话。
不知道什么时候开始，对于感情这回事，我没有想要吵架的念头。
并不是没有脾气，但我找不到那兴致。更找不到吵下去的理由。
当这一刻来临的时候，拿起电话但我下不了手给予你任何的回复。我想让它就安静的渡过这一晚，在我醒来以后或许也就没事了吧。
并非逃避，是因为这个问题没有答案。
就很突然的发生，然后你一句我一句，没完没了。
如果可以，我想就这样无理取闹，闹脾气。
但问题是我闹不起来了，反而安静了。
我不想在乎这门安静了。
感情，平静就好。
2 Feb 11
We're just fine last Sunday,hung for a day,talked until I don't wish to turn back to my normal life.
And we're still fine yesterday night.
I love to end the day by you accompany me to talk until I can falled asleep tightly.
I dreamed,and I got nothing to worry until I was awake.
But again,as last few weeks.
Again about nonsence.
Actualy there're nothing to discuss somemore but why do everytime the problem keep pop out
I don't understand that.
That feeling is worst than a split.
I feel like wanna avoid from text you somemore if got nothing special matter.
I'm affraid of it.
Stop all that.
Feel so empty.We aren't anything
And we're still fine yesterday night.
I love to end the day by you accompany me to talk until I can falled asleep tightly.
I dreamed,and I got nothing to worry until I was awake.
But again,as last few weeks.
Again about nonsence.
Actualy there're nothing to discuss somemore but why do everytime the problem keep pop out
I don't understand that.
That feeling is worst than a split.
I feel like wanna avoid from text you somemore if got nothing special matter.
I'm affraid of it.
Stop all that.
Feel so empty.We aren't anything
2011/02/01
1 Feb 11
Maybe I'm used to wake up early in the morning and prepare to go to school,so I still did that on last Sunday,I mean the day before today.
Maybe I'm just too stressful.
I'm so awaiting for every holidays(who don't?==),coz I can relax as how I wanted,but since the holiday get start,I will imagine how's the day after the end of holiday.
Study is the greatest thing but why I felt a little bit sickening of it?==
Tired + Stressful everyday,my head will duty on time everyday---->Ouch.My headache starts on time,just alike as my scedule.Never miss.
Forgive on my lazyness,I need to take a rest sometimes.Hmm...
Anyway,I still love that,my life,especially my schoolife.
Hey dudes,I miss you all badly. Seems like long time no see?Hmm,think so...
Still have to remind one thing,that is stop to mortify others,is it seem very difficult to make it?
Hey don' you have your own dignity?What if others do the same thing that you've did on her?
If I feel that as her,I am ensure that I will feel so hurt too,as her.
Beauty of a girl doen't depends on the figure that she carries,but just make one simple thing,stop her vulgar as she can.
Ouh,I met two men during my way to find my dear.
They've asked me about where can find a MAYBANK//CIMB atm.
It's just fine,I can lend you a help and just tell you the way.
But they're just shit!!Don't get so close to me lah!I hate that so much okay!And I don't even know both of you!!
Just less one step!!If you get more closer to me,I swear that I'll KICK seii you!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Don't you see I nearly get mad?Don't know whether is I don't show my emotion obviously or you really idiot until you never wonder that I'm almost get mad,you never keep your distance further but further instead!
Dear says this is such a nice way to seduce girl also!Sweet~aha~==
Just forget about it.
Warn yourself,don't to get mad easily on those small matter,if its effect isn't that great but you spread your temper on it,it's just nothing and you'll regret on it someday.Anger brings nothing,but surely lost something in life.That is why regrets appear.
Just make a thing easy come easy go,or else try to enjoy it,coz that's a part of life also.
Seriously,I really cnt stop my jealousy on you.
I can just let everything go easily but I can't make it on you.
I can't explain to you how is my jealousy but its really feel so hard,suffer exactly.
Yes,I admit that.
I did jealous on a girl that younger than me about 3 or 4 years.
I did that without my self-control.I'm out of my own control,obviously.
I think you will think back what I had tell you yesterday
I said,no matter how mature of a person is,he/she will still spread jealousy on you if he/she do love you.
Get it?
What he brings for me is the most valuable,memoriable,and even priceless for me.
I was falling deeply,madly,permanently on him.
Yes I do love him,always.
Maybe I'm just too stressful.
I'm so awaiting for every holidays(who don't?==),coz I can relax as how I wanted,but since the holiday get start,I will imagine how's the day after the end of holiday.
Study is the greatest thing but why I felt a little bit sickening of it?==
Tired + Stressful everyday,my head will duty on time everyday---->Ouch.My headache starts on time,just alike as my scedule.Never miss.
Forgive on my lazyness,I need to take a rest sometimes.Hmm...
Anyway,I still love that,my life,especially my schoolife.
Hey dudes,I miss you all badly. Seems like long time no see?Hmm,think so...
Still have to remind one thing,that is stop to mortify others,is it seem very difficult to make it?
Hey don' you have your own dignity?What if others do the same thing that you've did on her?
If I feel that as her,I am ensure that I will feel so hurt too,as her.
Beauty of a girl doen't depends on the figure that she carries,but just make one simple thing,stop her vulgar as she can.
Ouh,I met two men during my way to find my dear.
They've asked me about where can find a MAYBANK//CIMB atm.
It's just fine,I can lend you a help and just tell you the way.
But they're just shit!!Don't get so close to me lah!I hate that so much okay!And I don't even know both of you!!
Just less one step!!If you get more closer to me,I swear that I'll KICK seii you!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Don't you see I nearly get mad?Don't know whether is I don't show my emotion obviously or you really idiot until you never wonder that I'm almost get mad,you never keep your distance further but further instead!
Dear says this is such a nice way to seduce girl also!Sweet~aha~==
Just forget about it.
Warn yourself,don't to get mad easily on those small matter,if its effect isn't that great but you spread your temper on it,it's just nothing and you'll regret on it someday.Anger brings nothing,but surely lost something in life.That is why regrets appear.
Just make a thing easy come easy go,or else try to enjoy it,coz that's a part of life also.
Seriously,I really cnt stop my jealousy on you.
I can just let everything go easily but I can't make it on you.
I can't explain to you how is my jealousy but its really feel so hard,suffer exactly.
Yes,I admit that.
I did jealous on a girl that younger than me about 3 or 4 years.
I did that without my self-control.I'm out of my own control,obviously.
I think you will think back what I had tell you yesterday
I said,no matter how mature of a person is,he/she will still spread jealousy on you if he/she do love you.
Get it?
What he brings for me is the most valuable,memoriable,and even priceless for me.
I was falling deeply,madly,permanently on him.
Yes I do love him,always.
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