2011/09/06

To the great awful as what happened around me recently is just senseless.
No matter how I ever caught any sight but that's me who's just passed by. 
I could rather accept what's hurts my ears but true instead of listen what's sweet,keep that if I say that I'll act as a happy deaf so you can talk as what as you wanted.
Once more,I will not grovel to anyone for benefits or something else.
I don't wanna to read anyone's mind some more,it makes me turned upset.
That's why I choose to read when I wish to escape.
Friends and lovers are sarcastic in special case sometimes,GL.

For the pretty girl who's the most troublesome troublemaker,I can't get why God has made you to fuss around like a cracked.I'll never count on what you ever did for me behind when I was really do not know,I got to know when you used the same way to treated others as well as me,it's doesn't matter for me.I'll not focus on you coz you showed more nothing than a bacteria.You could cheated on fool men who without pair of bright eyes but not those brilliants. What a SHALLOW creation in the world? *pish*

Thanks God everyday for giving a better day to me a day to day. <3

2011/08/25

HAPPY HOLIDAY!

因为昨天的SEGAK TEST,今天早上一睡醒的时候全身阵痛!太久没有运动了,还敢承认曾是田径员?!*爆笑*
那天考了BM & BI 的口试,考的时候面对着那么多对的眼睛,难免会紧张不已,加上是GROUP TEST,考不好的话就殃及别人了。我自己害自己,还害别人,写得长了些,上场前还以为我会像卡带一样停滞住了,结果我像是吟诗一样不停的望着窗外在念。没办法,这就叫做自作自受。

我有股要呐喊的冲动!我把那本科学给干掉了!:D
每当完成好的事,满足感总是很棒!*哈哈哈哈!*
很侥幸它没像去年的那一本烂的无可救药,曾经很多人用了异样后无奈的眼神看着它:




TAADAAAAAA~!



噢,那个总在自称自己是批改SPM考卷的老师太忙,要求调职去了。
谢天谢地,他太懒惰了,啧~
加上成天被异常眼神盯着看的感觉不太好。

换来了一个人挺不错的老师,很亲切。
或许她的教学与以往的不同,但朋友们,我们可以自己努力一些,没什么事我们做不到的。
要避免取消补习去呆在学校无所事事,我们自己可以做到,
不要总是抱怨别人的不对,要求别人为我们做些什么,要问你自己可以为自己做些什么,为这一班换来什么好的事情。
加上她现在是有着身孕的人,不管她有什么不足够的地方,就尽可能的去包容就算了,她大可选择不教呆在家里休息,那我们有什么理由去拒绝她还不停地做出投诉还不停的吵闹,她总会有她的好。
要求一件事就好了,敞开心胸的接受她,以后的日子不会难过。




前天下起倾盆大雨~
看着潮水从别班流过来,感觉很莫名奇妙哈 ~~
那个时间我们应该在上课,但大家都在看着潮水什么时候流进来。
水灾了,我不喜欢脱着鞋子走在肮脏的水中。
结果在礼堂呆上了没有意义的一天,好像难民。哈。
想象一下那么冷的天气大家围个圈交流,没距离,感情增进了不少,我感觉到友爱。 :)
我想这属于我们互相学习进步的方式吧? :)
YOU GUYS ARE ALWAYS THE POINT FOR ME TO TREASURE AND LOVE.THANKS GOD
 
*雨后数天 ,蚊子特多* 唉!

假期来临了,可以放松的日子所剩无几啊!
所以在下个星期来临以前我的日子过得是充实的。
过后就甭提了,要呆在我从小就绕到大的店里向我娘学习,她像女超人,超能力无限种类,甭想搞怪。
我懒得写了,待会儿大概会再次梦到假期吧,我太期待快乐的美好。


2011/08/24

24 AUGUST 11

无奈啊无奈。
有时候真的有股要把脑袋给砸了的冲动。
我毫无头绪,为何如此的憎恨国语。
我很排斥通通有关于国语的书籍,更排斥历史也牵扯了回教。说实在的,我不知道那宗教教学读了对我有什么好处?我得硬着头皮的啃书!
如果不是为了SPM,我会固执得连碰也不碰它。
最近就像患了什么奇怪的瘟疫一样,连续把自己栽在书本里头。两年里要考的东西太多。
我不想想太多。

我的负面病最近来探访我,做什么都不怎么顺心。
完全就想把自己收起来,我给不了太多的言语。像自闭症的小孩。
甚至到了小心翼翼的地步,否则就安安静静。有时候真的很想把自己标上宅女的标签,为了避免太多的烦恼,面子书只好少上,反正它的坏处还多过好处,无所谓。啧。
看着镜子,就只是一张憔悴的表情,很欠揍。==
我笑不出,压迫感,无奈。

我爱上了OLIVIA的bassanova风,很舒服的歌声。
我会快乐起来,soon。

什么时候走起懒散风了,还是得要认老了?或是星座趋向?
不是很想出门去,家里还是最舒服的 :]]]]
因为读书所以电话少用了电脑懒得开了,我不应酬不答客套话。


华文试卷很挑战,这一次的华文测验不很理想。
他们越是要你放弃华文,我们就越得要坚持,否则未来甭想华文字出现在国民型学校的教学上了。
虽然星期五大家都开开心心的早放学去,但就再忍着点吧,朋友。

就这样不active的失踪了,精神消耗的生活。*我们的未来不是梦*

2011/08/20

20 August 11

My mood is getting better then down again,what the halo?
Thanks God I met you,the hug is warm,a sweet noon. :)
I wish to laughs a lot please...................Gosh,can't get why moody without any reason :S
Fresh air and happy come to me please,God blesses!!
Psychology?Law?
Humane is freaky....................until I was getting blur to explore it @@
How about now?Would I be way better?*smirk*
Why's so confused to think about future huh??!

I'm DOWN DOWN DOWN DOWN DOWN DOWN.................. syndrome?
Will be fine soon and later,I just need somebody to talk with,laughs all along a day then everything would be goes fine.
I can't even make sure what's going wrong with me too,what's on my mind,what to worry?The sky doesn't fell also.I wanna get well.
I'll be lovin my life and peoples again soon. <3


*What an insane guy!Scramble please as you not belong to part of my life anymore!

2011/08/18

[ Heartstring ]

I got how's upper form life going now,it's busy,tired,lack of sleep,insomia sometimes and else.
More homework,less Facebook.
What an afraid?SPM.

Fine.Who says one can't live better without a man?If is anybody,so am I.

I can't get any point from relation since a year ago,I'm so damn steam with that,I can't feel anything like wood.Friendships have made me touch until now,it taught me to believe,to be trustful,no betrayal,no bargain so that to get much,it's always a peaceful world.A smile could changes everything.
Pain could be something hurt and drop people so down but you'll never realised it was gone while celebrating the happiness afterward.
Things will go better isn't it?
In fact I wish to contribute more than accept contribution.Because it makes one feels well,no worries...
 Do not involve in a relation doesn't mean one's pity,but luckily.

Tanks God to released me from miserable until everything's fine now.
Eat well sleep well live well,until my life's full with loves.
Appreciate everything I have and laughs often.
No comment no explain no complaint,these isn't my jobs.So on what happened to anyone whom ever be with me too,I'll just give a wish from true heart,no matter who was that,coz that's one's choice.
What for troblesome?Be a good girl,with wishes and smiles from true heart,accept everything and ignore what you can't to be.
I'm fine,with my life goes on and containing what I want.
Appreciate Ah girl and others. <3


Should be a busy Thursday tomorrow,luckily no koku~
Thanks God! 

2011/08/16

Hmm,WESTERN? :)

Well recently went not smooth...What the hell? Haiz.
I need a environment without forcing please! I hate B.M more now as long as I read it for a long day to only sit for my exam and only a few questions like peanuts appears on one and half faces of the paper.Full with nonsense.And the teacher lazy like hell also.Nice one dude.
I'm speechless to talk with them especially my dad sometimes,tiresome lah disconnected also.Make me so scare to move my step out from my house to go to school,seems like for a long time I'll not be in home.Gosh.WTC.
Just a little bit spread,no worries LAHhhhhhhh!
I'll come over it!Ouh yesssssssssss~! :S
Imma a HAPPY teen CRAZY teen TOUGH teen INDEPENDENT teen whosoever :)
Keep heard the 'Take A Bow' anywhere recently,so I listened it yesterday by search it on 4SHARE yesterday then.It makes me thought about the last relation before.I've no idea why did it happen but over,it's positive.No way back as I wish,the life is pretty well now and later.
I couldn't go back,no point to thinking of it as it's actually my illution.
I prefer WESTERN!Hahaha! 
Wait for me my western guy,after I get a well result in few years :)
I'll fight you Chinese test!SPM! :3
His smile makes me CHILLLLLLLL! :D
Ouh my LOVE! Haaaaaaa! >v<

2011/08/12

Getting start of independent life. What the FUN? :)

Discussed future plan recently with Ah girl Ah Yang and Ah Lwee! :D
When we talk about this every time surely we'll have very wide imagination and laughs a lotttttttttt!!
Very simple and enjoyable job -----> STEWARDESS!
Ah Yang said it benefits a lot to Ah girl!You guys know why?
Simple+forgiveness+kind,all's her suitable condition to have the job!
Lost conscience,now only left me and Ah Lwee get in to Taylor's,Wednesday and Thursday need to take LRT to school,nobody fetch what that's why,should be her job in fact~ so pityyyyyyy~~
Bye,she says once she has a flight to somewhere she'll brings chocolate back to us and also a LV!
Then she'll marry with an INTERNATIONAL HANDSOME+STANDARD MAN.
And also the Lawyer Tan.OMG really laughed until my tears falled down..... T.T


What a enjoyable and happy year 4! I don't ever be in such environment before!Fantastic! ^^''
When I was in my lower form study,I can feel everyday is very stressful,only few of them isn't stingy type people,so suffering need to tolerate what I dislike,full with actors around!Tiresome!
The environment now has changed me better,most of them are acceptable and real,laughs around everyday!And Ah girl  ah Yang and Da Tang too~They motivate me to do any good things and encourage,just a lot,I can't really complete what they guys have gave me. I love them and classmates,I wish to keep it until so long.never give up.


I gotta start my independent life!! :)
I wish to know how's the feel to earn money and how's the social?What a fantastic try right? ;)
I don't wanna be an useless girl some more,and now it's the time to get much experiences in my life,it must be useful to my future!!
Become a very hot-temper girl,need the whole world to tolerate with the temper when in a bad mood?Emo?Pattern like a actress smirk all the time also don't even feel very tired,what the hell?I hate it.Like a little baby.
Avoid from this,let's be well.


C'on babes!
We're going to enjoy our shoot and preparing our Final soonnnnn!! :D


:)

2011/08/02

No pain no gain,no hurt no cries. :)

Imma suffering from him,suffering from my study today.
Excuse me,I need to spare some space to myself,managing my mind,it could be fine soon. :)
I lost my confident recently,I couldn't find the reason why did I think through such a sucks way,I can't have a smile when I look at the mirror,seriously unusual.
Thanks daddy and mummy to cheer me up.What they giving me is always the best,supporting without any comment.
They asked me to look at my heritage,it's fine.Be cheerful since so many of them love you and appreciate you,behave and full of loves every time,admire and love ourselves,peoples would love you more than you when you start this way with a CHEERFUL mind.
Thanks God always giving me what I want when I need something.
I satisfied with the pretty life which I having now,that's the best effect of what I thought in past.
It should get better,I try so,I believe that what I want to get will comes into my life very soon,as I wishing.
Avoid from telling me about MAN,I'm not interested in,and fed-up.
There's no reason for me to guess what about them.What for?
Since when sadness is in need?It'll never be.
I can live without a relationship,if it is yours,you'll meet it and last-longing until you get what's forever;If it doesn't yours,it will still leave you even you met it and hold it tightly.
I didn't mean to care anyone's words,but for me a person personality is more important than everything.I'm not reality,biggest cause of breaking up is just isn't a suitable time,even not the suitable person.
If for you I'm just alike as others,please go away from my life,I won't expect anything from you,of course no bargain,too.
I'm a tough,nothing could scares me.But don't make me any trouble,just dislike.
No sorry to you,I'll never change because of a man.
Live through what I wish to live,I just can tell you that's all.


To my girl,no more cries,okay?
I'm here,shoulders are always here,just tell.
I love you always,and remember our future?Must go on after this,I shall waiting.We have times. <3

2011/07/29

Imma just fine always,thus have nothing to worry!


好久好久都从来没有尝试那么的感触,不知道什么时候开始坏心情对我来说已经算是没什么,更不用说情绪。总记得,心情是会影响别人的情绪的,所以我得用感觉来监视每一个思想。思想让你有了感觉,你才会知道自己的方向在哪里,要的是什么啊,否则我是不是就在绕圈,最后原地不动了?

人很善变是合情合理的一回事,所以人因人的善变而累了,却不能太累,因为丢了一个让你失望的人,只要有所期待,也不怕没机会再遇见更多的人,看见更多的变化,未来还真的很不可思议,生活是人的作为,没有变化哪来的美好?

眼泪是该被精神上排出的坏东西,那对身体无益,为何不把它撤出,好让我不觉得闷在心里面很无奈,很挣扎。没有什么过不去的事,悲哀的是因为一句跨不过而就停住生活不向前了,得爱自己才是。


过去的思想就反映在现在啦,只要相信一切将会是美好的,生活也将会是美好的。生活的魅力不是谁都能完完全全的诠释好,一旦感觉到了它的存在,它就一直都在,只要保持住它,它就不会离开,或许你觉得事实太残酷,世界一直都是善良的,否则它不会告诉你什么是真实的什么是虚假的。

不管是否到了我的极限,我知道忍一忍对我来说是不会有害的。变化,感觉,一直都在告诉我是不是偏离轨道,只要熬过去,就没事了嘛,那很简单。

怎么知道其他人们在想些什么?所以要在乎吗?谁在乎? 
如果总跟着别人的脚步走,那永远都不会是你自己要的路,到不了自己想看的那一道风景。

如果总担心着别人看待你的眼光,那你自己去了哪里。

丢了你自己,你就什么都没有了,
那是真正的贫穷,真正的一无所有,真正的悲哀,finally you're just nothing.

能怎么样?那都是自己把它带进生命的。
现在这一个年龄,

或许可以像个孩子一样疯狂的玩闹,但却不一定可以在遇到挫折时像个孩子一样选择哭闹。
或许时间多的让人觉得手空空很闲,但其实它在被浪费的很不值。

或许有一个人在心上徘徊走不掉,但时间久了其实却也没办法再回头。

或许我会很恨他,但最后我才发现没有诶。

知不知道转个头会浪费多少时间,摔多一次再复原是否又要让自己的心情惨兮兮的,然后浪费一天有一天,结果原本很多更值得去拥有的人事物早就走远了,只是我们后知后觉。
不想要就不想,得不到就不要,想怎样就怎样,得好好的爱自己,珍惜自己的一切,别人才会用心的去爱你,因为在别人的眼里,你是有价值的。

我没办法恨一个人太久,因为不想折磨自己,然后向摧毁自己一样让自己不快乐,再说,恨的理由何在,我不清楚。

永远都不要为了生活而快乐,要为了快乐而生活才对啊。
我的快乐比伤悲来的快速,吃到我满足然后好好睡一觉,要不然就走走笑笑的,这样很快乐耶。
不想要的东西就拒绝吧,不是时候就缓延吧。我的爸妈很爱我,所以我也爱我自己,也爱我的朋友。我想这大概就是一种感动吧,即使它很简单。 

2011/07/05

Go on,sweetlife still mine. =)

今年的生日很快乐,生日快乐 =D
我真的火大了。我的电话被个三十多岁的老家伙盗取了,但也怪我粗心大意。我很后悔给她一个机会试衣试到那么爽,我却感觉在烧=[
so what?人家偷了就是偷了啦,你还期待她还给你?傻的 T T
毕竟她moral白读了==
睡觉的时候感觉旁边空空的感觉很不好啊,我很想念它啊=[
怎么办。。。我的生活记忆全都被她全然的灭了,还有电话号码。咳。现在很头痛要买回电话和搞好号码啊,搞得我头大。我哭不出,悲哀。sorry my dearest AINO,sorry daddy...

好吧,事件发生,我烦恼不已,怎么解决?Any method?
在我不责怪谁对谁错的当儿,我长大了。当感受过一个人的生活时,需要很大的勇气去决定去反省。因为没有感受过限于一个人的感受的时候,就永远不会知道自己要什么。反正也就这样的走来,反正都知道该怎么办了,就打从心里来鉴定过吧。
每一样事情都是没有限制的,只不过不是适当的一个时机。有些事情不说并不代表我没有这样的感受,唤起别人不好受的频率是实在没有必要的。
不管这一刻起我会做什么,都是长远的一个决定,我也想安稳得过生活。
该面对的东西我没有必要逃避,大不了睡个觉,况且那不很严重,不管是你太高攀我的疗伤能力还是低估我面对的勇气,我唯一的解释是我可以比你大胆,也拜托免了帮我解释,捏造很可耻。电话不见是我也没那本事去兼顾面对与否这一回事。
等到那一道墙不在的时候,想法就能免了。
期间不管会发生什么事,我只能适应,人总要学习担起责任。

我抱着一种期待美好的心情拍下我自己。感觉是不错。哈 ^-^

2011/06/19

18 June 2011 A monthly absent.

I just realized that I left here for so long since Mid-year examination until now!Before I was unable to sign in here not because of my password was expired but my brother made something wrong with my laptop!Ouh!I don't expect he gonna borrow it some more!I'm spending my time to look for those thing which had lost.
All test paper has been returned except BM2.Unsatisfied with my Accounting!Honestly I don't even like this subject,it's bored and I hate it because it is in BM form!Unfortunately I was born here,no matter sit for UPSR,PMR or the coming SPM,BM must be pass to continue education,why don't to focus on more important subjects but just BM?!==This really makes me spent most of the time focus on BM than the others.Irate!
This week was the ONLY week I talk the least.Few ulcers grows in my mouth,it makes me feel so pain until I can't even smile,can't even laugh,can't even eat and can't even do anything I wish to do!
Today was Pay Fong 98th Anniversary! Went with my friends and the day was just full! =]
Satisfied with the day! ❤
Thanks Chia Wei looked for the tickets and coupons for me!Really glad to met you again!!Love you!
And had fun with Li Pin and Lui.Unsatisfied of took for a short moment to had sate celup!Once I wish to eat the ulcers will stop me to do so!==
Back to my holiday!
Once the exam was finished I already planned to go for movie afterward.Had watch Pirate of the Carribean on last last and last Friday!The movie was soooooo damn long until I almost fall asleep!Between really quite nice!
And I'm mad to talking about the KL trip,I don't know why must treat me that way,privacy,freedom.You made it doomed!What can I do is just keep on shop!!
And of course Jonker walk,I had tried the snow ice!I love the Chocolate oreo favour so!
After girl back from KL,we really shop for so long and spent a lot!I love BREEK'S CAFE meal.mummy used to brought me there,I still can eat that much,just gain my weight,who cares thin tall pretty or ugly?






Another day went out with Jor,Emily,Carmen,Mervin,and Raymond Kee!
We'd tried so hard to snap the formation of honey!==
Before that already watched INSIDIOUS with Chia Wei,it's damn horrible!I even shout out during the movie!Total I had watched it three times!And when girl came back,we watched together again with Casendra and Tiian! =)
 
Guys I must introduce a book!Named THE SECRET.
It's really a nice book and worth to read,you'll learn much. =]
Available in both English and Chinese form.



NO MAKE UP FROM NOW ON.It makes me feel like lost myself,and I tired with that.
Stop for a long days then =]

Puan Koh's words has made us guilty!Let's try harder on the next test guysss!! 
Still,I love my friends! ❤
Happy Father's day to daddy!Thanks to my dad has always gives all what I want.
I love him alwayssss!! =3